i am morose and miss talking to PhD student.
but you know, gotta act unavailable and coy.
and he’s in Australia again soooo…
When you love someone, you give them everything, but then they turn out to be a dick, and everything gets chucked back in your face. Then you’re insecure, paranoid, and jealous, and you’re obsessed over that person. It’s one massive head game because you’re like, “Who am I now?” You feel like this shriveled-up Gollum-like creature. And then you hate yourself because you’re trying so hard and it’s just not working. That’s what my album’s about.
Fuck fuck fuck.
I apologize about the spew of text posts regarding the fellow I’m crushing on. It’s just I haven’t seen him in two years and I am surprisingly as into him as I was then. My friends even have told me that I have it bad but all think it’s kind of cute to see a different side of my personality - apparently “stone cold bastard” was getting a little tedious for them. Who knew?